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Under the influence.
So after my earlier outburst of emotion, like a man full of hormones lol, I took my meds and went to bed for an hour…
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Total Confusion!
That seems to be the way today is going. Mum is starting sentences and ending them with a different subject, getting muddled about little things,…
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Another day draws to a close.
And so the weekend ends. Pretty quiet weekend for me this weekend, compared to those of recent weeks anyway. A lot of time spent at…
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How things change.
Gone for just a few hours, but within that time mums mood has changed somewhat. Currently out for a cigarette, she commented that she has…
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A few moments to reflect.
So the past 48 hours have been quite the strain really. Nothing drastic, but a whole lot of little things all at once can really…
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Beautiful poem *gulp
When fear comes through the window, common sense flies out of the door. I know because I experience it more and more. 'How brave you…
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Quick add-on to my earlier entry. I mentioned mums condition today, and my worries about her state. I am back for my evening visit now…
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Another week begins.
Kinda anyway. You know what I mean. A nice short week at least eh. So I'm just finishing work and am on the train home…
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Back at the hospice.
And this afternoon she is a little bit confused. She is repeating a story to me about someone else who is poorly, and what is…
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I’m not sleeping!
Well, I'm not, but this is more about mum. Today, as for the past few days, she insists she cannot sleep properly. Since being admitted…
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