What the hell does that even mean?
I really do struggle with the concept at times, especially when it is important.
Right now, slowly recovering from a back injury, I know that it is important that I don't try too hard too soon. However, as with many other things in my life that require patience, I just don't get it.
As my back first started to hurt, I should have taken it easy, rather than seeing the pain as some sort of weakness. Stubborn and determined to prove I am made of stronger stuff, I push on and ultimately end up with something that will take 10 times longer to bounce back from, than if I had listened to my mind and body in the first place.
I was so caught up in the moment, and so blinkered by my goals and desires, I totally ignored the signs, pushed on and ended up in a right old mess.
But there is light at the end of the tunnel, and the symptoms are slowly subsiding. With a combination of drugs, stretches and yoga, combined with a slow and steady return to being active, I am making progress.
Alas, once again my stupid mind is trying to bully me into pushing too hard. So I am carefully watching the numbers, and making sure that there is NO rush this time. If I have an active day like today, the next is slightly easier.
It is a habit I need to break. Rushing into things has always been a weakness, and it is one I am determined to overcome. Lessons have been learned on many levels, and new ideals have been found. No more rushing.
Life is a journey, not a race.....
This weekend I miss out on a bike ride I have been training for for six months now. My ego is screaming for me to at least try it, my recent progress tells me I stand a chance. But my common sense tells me that it is just not worth the risk of injury and spending the remainder of the summer unable to ride or run. And that is something I just can't deal with.
Already gaining weight (and now fighting it again) I know I don't want to lose any more momentum, and need back on that wagon. So here's to slow and steady steps for everything in life, and to being back in the saddle and also running again properly by the end of August.