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Struggles with emotions
For years now I have been perceived in many different ways, from warm and caring, to cold and callous. I see myself somewhere in the…
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Isolation within a crowd.Marbles in my mind.
Having had days to dwell on how im feeling right now, I have finally stumbled across this explanation which I might add is an old one.…
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At war with my demons.
Once again my demons of depression rear their ugly heads, and the pit of despair opens wide to try and swallow me up. Small things…
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