Mid way through week two, as we get to the last two days it's assessment time. In the past 8 days a lot of information has been absorbed, or at least I hope it has. Most of it has stuck, now I just have to make sense of it all.
As I say, the first assessment is nigh. I feel I am starting to get to grips with it. Confident in certain functions, able to muddle through other bits, but I'm getting there. 1/6th of the way through the course, it's not like I should be a fully fledged Control Officer yet, but there are times when I wonder what stage I'm really at.
The group as a whole seem to all be at the same point, so I don't feel like I am flagging in any way. I am also surprised at how confident in general I feel. Able to converse with others without feeling like a fraud or a fake, stepping up when I need to do something.
It feels good be in this kinda mental space, it is not something in thought I would be saying. Certainly not based on my past few years. Goes to show how toxic environments can be for the mind. But I am happy to say this is very different.
Lots of revising and practicing tonight, then an early start for an angry gym session to get the day going.
On a side note, I had a beautiful early morning run by the LOC today, who knew Merton was so scenic.
I realise this didn't make much sense, but just wanted to keep people up to speed on what's happening. Exciting times, and I still love it.