And it still is really, but it seems the highest high gives me a smile yet the tiniest low gives me a wobble that just keeps going.

Yesterday was an interesting day to say the least, but have to say it brought the most amazing feeling of belonging and cohesiveness possible. As things unfolded everyone in the team pulled together and made the biggest of things seem like a breeze. Familiarity with certain things helped, and a little experience made sure things flowed seemlessly.

I came home from work yesterday beaming and feeling like I had done good things and made a positive difference during my day. While that might seem like I should have been on an amazing high, it was not the case.

I say that but as I do, I realise that might not be the truth. Here I go contradicting myself. OK truth is in the moment it did feel quite far along the feelgood scale. However…

Why is it the slightest negative which should barely register feels so shitty and bad. Totally wiping out the positive feeling.

Bear with me while I work my way through this, it’s as confusing to me as it is to you reading it.

I guess what I am saying is the the highest high becomes so insignificant compared to the slightest low. When I say I like that I realise that I am just stating the obvious and this applies to all situations and moods in life. The smallest negative thing can take the wind out of the best of celebrations.

I am writing this to try and work through the mood and get back on my feet. Why do these little moments keep me rattled so long? It is SO frustrating. What I need to do is change my muscle memory, and try to eradicate these moments I have, then I won’t have to work through them, simple eh!